I sort of understand what you are going through. I met my husband when I was 15 year old. I am now 26. I didn't plan on marring him, let alone date him for more than a month or two. Two months later I found out that I was pregnant. He was the first guy I slept with so he couldn't dare say that the baby wasn't his. He was there for everything. Eventually we moved in togetherand had another unplanned pregnancy. In 2006 we just decided to get married. Yes at the time we were in love, but I was 4 months pregnant on my wedding day. After I married him is when I fell out of love with him because he started getting "comfortable" with me and would put me down alot and I just was not attracted to who he was anymore. I got a job cause I didn't want to stay home all the time and loved it. About 2 years ago I met this guy at my daughters school and immediatly fell for him. He was everything I was looking for in a man, and I let my feelings get the best of me and I cheated on my husband. I didn't sleep with the guy we just talked and enjoyed eachothers company. This went on for about 2 months and then my husband cought me! Glad to say that my husband forgave me and we are working on our marriage. But what I felt at that time when I was with that other guy I knew that if I would have met him earlier in my life I would have not married my husband. But I built my path to walk on and my choice was to marry him, work on our marriage and raise our family together. I am happy with decision, and I believe God will heal my marriage and he is with me in every choice I make now.