Demi Lovato, who recently celebrated her sixth year of sobriety, is getting candid about the first time she thought about taking her life. In a sit-down with Dr. Phil, the 25-year-old told the host that she contemplated suicide at a very early age.
"The very first time that I was suicidal was when I was seven, and I had this fascination with death," Mexican-America beauty said. "I have experienced things that I’ve not talked about and that I don’t know if I ever will talk about. But at seven, I knew that if I were to take my own life that the pain would end."
Lovato, who believes her issues stem from her unresolved relationship with her father, Patrick Lovato, revealed that her suicidal thoughts came back when she was bullied. "It came back when I was bullied. It came back several times when I as struggling with depression—my bipolar disorder," she told the host, adding, "I turned to cutting and there was a while there when my mom was afraid to wake me up in the mornings, because she didn't know if she opened the door, if I would be alive or not, because every time I cut it got deeper and deeper."
While she launched her acting career at an early age thanks to Barney and Friends, the "Sorry Not Sorry" singer admitted that she was bullied because of her appearance on the show. "I was bullied when I was 12," the powerhouse singer said. "I was searching for something to numb me out and to fit in and I turned to alcohol and that's where I felt relief."
The bullying turned to it's worse when classmates passed around a "suicide petition" for other people to sign it.
Thanks to her platform, the star is now using her life-long battle with mental illness and addiction to help reduce the stigma around it.
“If I could tell anybody that’s thinking about taking their own life, is to reach out to people. Don’t hold it inside — don’t isolate. Reach out to people, whether it’s close friends, family,” she advised. “If you feel like you don’t have anybody, look within yourself and try to find that resilience that will ultimately get you through whatever it is you’re going through. Every single person on this planet is worth life.”